Pushing limits, the good kind. Crossfit

So how do you celebrate a hundred days of sobriety?  Well admitting I had an addiction was a humbling experience that changed my life.  So I figured I would engage in yet another humbling experience.  My normie friend Rob just started Crossfit.  I thought to myself that would be really good for me.  So I got up and dragged all damn near 300 pounds of me down for an introductory evaluation.  I had to get on a rower for 1000 meters.  Next I was off to doing 40 squats.  Then I think I got to the pushups before almost vomiting.  That was the end of the workout.  I had to quit.  As I pulled myself together and got ready to leave the instructor encouraged me to workout on my own for a bit and come back and try again.  I explained that I am an addict and I need to be accountable to a group.  I asked how much they charged for personal training sessions and bought 10 of them.  So now I will be going twice a week and working out on my own in between.
Today I went back for my first personal training session.  The trainer took me through some great new stretches and functional exercises.  Then it was time for my workout to begin.  I has to run 200 meters, 18 pushups, 18 squats, 18 ring rows, then walk a few laps of the gym while catching my breath a little.  Next I was in to 14 pushups, 14 squats, and then 14 ring rows.  When I wrapped those up I told the trainer I was done.  I had nothing left to give. He thought differently.  So I hung in for 9 pushups, 9 squats, and 9 ring rows.  Yes! I did it! I survived.  Then the trainer reminded me I still had one more 200 meter run.  Out the door and 200 meters I ran.
This wouldn't even be a warm up for many people.  For me it was the physically hardest thing I have done in years.  I wanted to quit because it was hard.  That's what I do as an addict.  Instead, I fought through the pain and exhaustion.  I lived in consultation by listening to my trainer when all I wanted to do was give in to the voice telling me to quit.  By doing those few things I made it through.  I can apply the things I have learned in recover in the gym.  In treatment I worked out my spirituality and my mind.  At Crossfit I am working out my body.
If you are trying to recover from a substance or process addiction, please start exercising consistently.  Start easy but gradually increase the intensity and duration.  Push your body, it will push your mind.  Suddenly you will be seeing things that you couldn't do becoming things you can do.  Do the next right thing.